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Wednesday September 20




Both fell today.

Lord have mercy. 

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Thursday  September 21

11:13pm, now sitting quietly at home.

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No failure in America, whether of love or money, is ever simple; it is always a kind of betrayal, of a mass of shadowy, shared hopes.

- Greil Marcus

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Some birds leaving the nest soon.  Summer is at an end.  Can I go too? 

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pa·tron·age (pa-tron-nij) noun

1.Support, encouragement, or championship, as of a person, an institution, an event, or a cause, from a patron. 

2.Support or encouragement proffered in a condescending manner: It seems our little establishment has finally been deemed worthy of the bank's patronage. 

3.The trade given to a commercial establishment by its customers: Shopkeepers thanked Christmas shoppers for their patronage. 

4.Customers or patrons considered as a group; clientele: The grand old hotel has a loyal but demanding patronage. 

5.a. The power to distribute or appoint people to governmental or political positions. 

b. The act of distributing or appointing people to such positions. 

c. The positions so distributed or filled.

6.The right to grant an ecclesiastical benefice to a member of the clergy.

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There is no terror in a bang, only in the anticipation of it.

- Alfred Hitchcock 

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Not sure if this is something to be proud of: I'm getting better at firing people.

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Nothing that grieves us can be called little: by the eternal laws of proportion a child’s loss of a doll and a king’s loss of a crown are events of the same size.

- Mark Twain

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en·tre·pre·neur noun 

A person who organizes, operates, and assumes the risk for a business venture.

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when you’re in the middle of it, you say to yourself, “Oh, now I’ve got myself into an awful mess; I wish I were sitting quietly at home.” And the sign that something’s wrong with you is when you sit quietly at home wishing you were out having lots of adventure.

- Thornton Wilder

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Friday September 22

It has been a mostly sleepless week. 

Next challenge: to accept change with humility, grace, dignity, and honor.  This is the real test of will, strength, and aim.   

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Working on turning a seeming disadvantage into a relaxing weekend.  Lost some battles.  The war is not over.

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The highlight of my day: catching up with SueE in the office after the bomb dropping meeting.  We shared JerryM "manifesto" stories and silly confessions about my secret desire to meet ReneZ.   

Also, an inspiring lunch with KimO today who feels charged to take on a portion of the original BTV mission.   

Such irony.

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Saturday September 23

SGC monthly dinner chez Pelota this evening.  The first real meal cooked here; so satisfying to cook for friends.   Great food.  Great music.  Great conversation.

Looking at strategies to increase our effectiveness next year.  And exploring strategies to use the time we have (and do not have) with greater intention.

Dinner was a complete hit:

1. salad (dean)
2. main course (moi)
3. wine (curt)
4. dessert (bob and jax)

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Sunday September 24

Many unreturned phone calls this weekend.  No time to stop and talk about what is going on.  I'm too much in it to stop and talk about it.  Tomorrow, yet another Monday trip to Menlo Park; this one, perhaps the most important yet.  No, that is bullshit -- they have all been equally important/unimportant.  The value of these trips is not measured on a scale of 'importance.'  The scale slides based upon the whims of our VCs. 

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Chopped more hair off of the top of my head this afternoon.    Quote of the day from JohnL: "Steve lost his power when the hair came off."  

Maybe true.  Sampson, my ass. 

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